Friday, April 27, 2012

Standing at a Crossroad

This is for anyone who has suffered from an addiction, or bad choices in their life;

1. I walk down the street, There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I am lost...I am helpless It isn’t my fault. It takes forever to find a way out.

2. I walk down the street, There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I pretend I don’t see it I fall in again I can’t believe I am in the same place. But, it isn’t my fault. It still takes a long time to get out.

3. I walk down the street, There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I see it there I still fall’s a habit My eyes are open. I know where I am. It is my fault. I get out immediately.

4. I walk down the same street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I walk around it.

5. I walk down another street.

Thursday, April 26, 2012

God's Challenging Voice

Week 5: God's Voice Reveals His Plan

God's Challenging Voice - Day 4 from Discerning the Voice of God by Priscilla Shirer

Ellie Lofaro has this to say about God:

I know the Lord is speaking to me when I'm not particularly thrilled with what He is saying. 

Forgive him. Be kinder to her. Visit the prisoners. Change your attitude. Submit to authority. Stop controlling things.  It's not about you, Ellie - get over yourself!

I love Jesus and have been enjoying a relationship with Him for almost 35 years. BUT my stubborn Italian flesh still collides with God's perfect will for my life. How I yearn to arrive at a place when my consistent response to the Lord's voice will be that of Jesus: "Not my will Lord, but yours."

Wednesday, April 25, 2012


This is the explanation behind the song, by Jeremy Camp.

I think that the music is what I fell in love with first. Then the words, once I knew them!

LOVE, is all I can say.

Seated above, enthroned in the Father's love
Destined to die, poured out for all mankind
God's only son perfect and spotless one
He never sinned, but suffered as if He did

All authority, every victory is Yours
All authority, every victory is Yours


Savior, worthy of honor and glory, worthy of all our praise, You overcame

Jesus, awesome in power forever, awesome and great is Your name, You overcame

Power in hand speaking the Father's plan
You're sending us out, light in this broken land

All authority, every victory is Yours

Savior, worthy of honor and glory, worthy of all our praise, You overcame

We will overcome by the blood of the Lamb
And the word of our testimony, everyone overcome

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Easter 2012

These are pictures that Jeanniehopes sent me. I don't know why they are so little!

This is Grandpop Krier

Sunday, April 22, 2012

He speaks to me

I went to see Lisa Harper this weekend. She was awesome. I even bought one of her books called Stumbling into Grace.

But something stood out to me because, well, it just happened TO ME! It's a GOD STORY!

Lisa talked about meeting someone at a conference who had brought her infant. He had Down Syndrome. The mom talked about how blessed they were to have little Elijah. But she had been going through a difficult season where she was unable to get out of bed. Her husband thought that a women's conference would be good for her.

After the conference was over, Lisa was talking to a group of ladies in the lobby of her hotel. Elijah's mom came up to her to ask her to sign a book. While signing the book, Lisa had overheard the group of ladies say a word and because she has ADD, she wrote that word by accident. Now this word is just there. It's a word that is an obvious mistake. Lisa thought about crossing it out. But then thought quickly to make a Creative Moments bubble and write a verse inside to cover her mistake.

Of course, our crowd of ladies is in hysterics.

Elijah's mom left and Lisa continued her conversation. As Lisa is getting on the elevator, the doors open and there is Elijah's mom. (As I am telling Amanda this story, I am bawling by this point). The woman said that she waited all weekend for Lisa to say something that would pull her out of her season, to lift her up, to encourage her. But nothing did. Elijah's mom was going home disappointed. But then she opened the book to see what Lisa had written and to her shock, it was her life verse. She said that she claimed this verse twenty years early. It was not a popular verse. She knew right then that God did see her.

I am sitting on the edge of my seat waiting for the word and the verse. Because Lisa had said a few times, "God sees". That is a comforting thing to me. (Click here to read about my secret name). And guess what? Lisa then concludes and dismisses us to have a brief break.

I couldn't get out to the lobby quick enough. I had to talk to her again. After she finished signing a book I simply said, "You are going to tell us the word when you come back, right"  She said, "No. I don't know it. But I will explain."

Sigh. Ok. I went back and when she continued the conference she said, many of you asked me what the word was during our intermission. I honestly don't remember it. I keep in touch with Elijah's momma and I have never asked her what I wrote. It wasn't about me. I had just made a mistake and tried to cover it up. But God used me. I was a pipe.

How awesome. I thought of course. It's not about us. If she knew the word then she might get all prideful knowing that she built that woman up.

And you are wondering what this has to do with me, right. Well, Lisa signed my book, "Theresa, You're His BELOVED." and the verse is Zeph 3:17.

Zeph.? That's in the bible? Must be OT. I'll have to look that up in that's in the van. OK, I will look it up when I get home.

I didn't get home until late because Amanda and I went to see Kari Jobe perform last night. And then I just forgot about it.

I have spent most of my day on the computer, blogging, reading blogs, looking up recipes, making a lesson plan for the week, visiting money saving blogs, etc. So I have not looked that up yet.

I was on one blog that lead me to another and that's when I found this really cute sign. I left a comment and waited for a response. The blog owner didn't know what I was talking about. So I left another comment with more information. Then it arrived. I got chills. I went to find my book. Yes, it is Zeph. 3:17. Now I am going to bawl.

I did not make this.   It was made by a crafter from Ponca City, OK - her company was called Grubbies Inspirations.  They were always scriptures or inspirational quotes, usually with a cute little drawing.   I have had this for at least 25 years.  I googled Grubbies Inspirations and only got one related citation- for a "vintage" Grubbie print selling for 7.99 on E-Bay.  That made me laugh.  Guess all of my stuff is vintage now!   This is Zephaniah 3:17 (NIV) so I don't think you have to worry about copyright infringement!

Wow, God. That's all I can say.

Thanks Karen!

The LORD your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing.” 

Change is Good!

“No one can serve two masters. Either you will hate the one and love the other, or you will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money." Matthew 6:24

One week has passed since I have become a House Wife. (Love it!) Curtis has given me the ultimate compliment. However, a man's compliment always sounds different than a woman's compliment.

"Oh I love those earrings. Where did you get them?"

"This is delicious. Can I have the recipe?"

"That sweater is so cute. Can I borrow it?"

You get the point. 

Curtis said Tuesday night, "You look whiter".

Ha! I immediately got it. 

(First of all, if you know me, you are probably thinking how I could look any whiter than I am. This is as dark as I get, all summer long!) 

What he meant to say (and don't you find yourself reinventing your husband's words?) was "Your face isn't all red from your blood pressure being elevated."

Yes! He said that was exactly what he meant. Then he said, "you look calmer after just two days."

And I am. I haven't screamed at the children once. (They did get a speech about homework on Thursday night, but I didn't scream.)

I wake with a peace in my heart that I can't even put in to words. I have walked the boys to school four of the five days this week. (I have another boy. His name is Eric. I'll tell you about him some time. Not this time, however.)

I made rice krispie treats and homemade rice pudding. I made collard green chips too. (Daniel and Curtis loved them. Amanda wouldn't even try them.)

I am making these some time this week.

I have re-evaluated our cable bill. There is no persuading Curtis to drop cable for something cheaper like Dish. He just isn't budging on that. So I had to re-evaluate other bills and things. I have changed my home owners policy and saved $180 a year. And just inquiring about the car insurance allowed the rep to find a error over the last two months. I will now be saving $50 a month there. 

And I am ditching the paper products. I read an article that said if I switch to cloth napkins over paper, I can save up to $80 a year. WOW. That is a huge savings. I am already doing laundry so it really isn't going to be much more, I figure.

Now I just have to find the right ones. My friend said that I want the ones that don't wrinkle. I laughed. Obviously she doesn't know me very well. I have a brand new 15 year old iron still in the box. Ha ha. Who cares about wrinkles. But she is quite insistent.

I am also going to send the children's snacks in contains instead of baggies.

So, help me out. Where else can I save money?

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

District Derby

There were twenty-five Webelos that raced. Daniel came in THIRD. This is a huge honor. Now we get to put the supplies away for a few months. Next year will be his last year to participate in the Pinewood Derby. He is going for the WIN!

I love this kid! (He is getting a hair cut this week).

Monday, April 16, 2012

Sunday, April 15, 2012

Made to Crave Summary

I finished this book last night. It was a quick read. I wasn't reading it on a regular basis either. I would HIGHLY recommend this one!

I am a big fan of Lysa's. She is the co-founder of Proverbs 31 Ministries but to those who "know her best she is simply a car-pooling mom who loves her family, loves Jesus passionately, and struggles like the rest of us with laundry, junk drawers, and cellulite."

At the end of the book is  Healthy Eating Go-To Scripts.

1. God has given me power over my food choices. I'm supposed to consume food. Food isn't suppose to consume me.
Scripture: 2 Corinthians 12:9

2. I was made for more than to be stuck in a vicious cycle of defeat.
Scripture: Deuteronomy 2:3

3. When I am considering a compromise, I will think past this moment and ask myself, How will I feel about this choice tomorrow morning?
Scripture:  1 Corinthians 6:19-20

4. When tempted, I either remove the temptation or remove myself from the situation.
Scripture: 1 Corinthian 10:12

5. When there's a special event, I can find other ways to celebrate rather than blowing my healthy eating plan.
Scripture:  Revelation 3:8

6. Struggling with my weight isn't God's mean curse on me, but an outside indication that internal changes are needed for me to function and feel well.
Scripture: Isaiah 43:18-19

7. I have these boundaries in place not for restriction but rather to define the parameters of my freedom.
Scripture: Romans 6:19

I have read the book with my pen in hand to underline the things that stuck out to me. That's how I read a book.

Crave means to long for; want greatly; desire eagerly. Pursuing holiness means God is the only One we should long for; want greatly; desire eagerly. The only One worthy of worship.

Recently, I heard a sermon about temptation. The pastor mentions alcohol. The congregation is silent. The pastor mentions drug addiction. The congregation is silent. The pastor mentions pornography. The congregation is silent. The pastor mentions chocolate cake and the congregation breaks out in to laughter.

Why is my addiction funny? Is my addiction not as serious as yours? It bothers me! But I better not even start because it will stir ungodly emotions in my heart.  Moving right along...

"I need wisdom to make wise choices. I need insight to remember the words I've read in Scripture. I need power beyond what I can find on my own."

What's a snack? What's a treat? Define them. Give me examples. This was our two minute conversation this morning. Daniel said chips are a snack and chocolate is a treat. Amanda said fruit and cheese are snacks and York's are a treat.

Food is not the enemy here. Satan is the enemy. And his strategic plan is to render us ineffective or at least sluggish for the cause of Christ.

What was Eve tempted by in the garden? Alcohol? Drugs? Pornography? Shoes? NO. It was food.

The very downfall of humanity happened around a circumstance where a woman was tempted with food. So I do think this is an issue God takes very seriously.

Thank you, Lysa. Because I am not snickering at chocolate cake. I am fleeing.

Lysa concludes the book with:

Dare to set your toes firmly on the path of victory you are meant to be on. Whether we're on the path toward victory or defeat is determined by the very next choice we make. Not the choices from yesterday. Not the choices five minutes ago.

The next choice. Our very next choice. May it be that of an overcomer. An overcomer made to crave God alone.

So, go get this book. Because you were made for more!

Friday, April 13, 2012

A Door Closes For a Window To Open

And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God's love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God's love. Romans 8:38
April 10, 2012

This is a difficult letter for me to write. I have thought about what I wanted to say for several days and nothing seems appropriate to cushion the announcement of my departure on Friday, April 13th.

I have enjoyed several years as an Assistant Teacher. I had planned on enjoying many more. However the Lord laughed at my plans and has decided to take me on another journey.

My heart has always been to be a housewife, as antique as that sounds. I have prayed many prayers that the Lord would give me the desire of my heart. And through a series of unexpected events, He has done just that.

I have had none other than great joy teaching and learning with your child. It’s been a privilege to guide them, pray with them and watch them grow in the Lord.

Therefore, not with a spirit of sadness but one of much peace, I say
good-bye for now.

With a sincere heart,
“For we walk by faith, not by sight.” 2 Corinthians 5:7

April 13, 2012

I only cried four times today!

This is the letter I posted on the employee bulletin board:

Once upon a time, I dreamed of being a stay at home mommy to my little girl. I had a high paying corporate job. But my heart longed to be elsewhere.

In December 2001, my husband made that dream possible and I quit my career. But it was short lived when there was more month than money. I soon went back to work. But now I had a little boy, too. I worked nights and weekends in order to stay home with my children during the day. I had three jobs. My husband had two. Somehow we managed but my dream never changed. I longed to be elsewhere.

In March of 2005, my husband made that dream possible as well, for three and a half years! But soon my little boy and little girl were not so little anymore and it was time for me to get back out there.

In 2008, I joined this team. And I quickly found that my passion was teaching the Gospel to the Wee Ones. But my heart continued to long to be elsewhere. I prayed that God would change my heart or take my desire away. I look back and I see His fingerprints all over this journey that has been leading me elsewhere.

In March of 2012, my husband again made that dream possible. Maybe you are wondering why I am giving the credit to Curtis. Well he has always been my biggest fan. We have been through a lot over the last several years. You can call it the good, the bad and the ugly. But we always manage to come out OK. He is the love of my life. And I want to be the best wife that I can for him. He deserves it.

I have always desired to be at home with the children. But when the children grow older, does the desire change? No, my desire has always been to be a Housewife (yes, so old-fashion), not the modern stay at home mom (which turns out to have an expiration date on the title once the children become school-age).

So I have been promoted. It’s a good thing. I have become comfortable in the last three weeks with the idea of becoming uncomfortable financially. But some things you just can’t put a monetary value on. For example, the time that I will have to make sure my husband, children and home are taken care of (yes, in that order).

Dream Big. Pray Big! My prayers have been answered. With a sincere heart, I will miss you all!     Theresa 

Sunday, April 8, 2012

500th POST!

“I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.” Galatians 2:20 NIV

The pressure I have felt in the last few weeks when I realized that number 500 was coming up has been building. I have emailed Jeannie Hopes a few times letting her know of the upcoming event. Ha ha!

On Good Friday, I realized that I was just one a way. So today on this Resurrection Sunday, I have reached this milestone, if you want to call it that.

What better subject to talk about then my Jesus? Today represents the day that He has risen from the dead. No other event in history will ever compare to His death, burial and resurrection. No one will ever be able to duplicate it.

On Friday afternoon, the children and I went to Jesus' funeral. It was a production put on by Student Venture. It was overwhelming. I had to borrow a tissue from the woman next to me. When I think about what Jesus endured for me, because of me, I am humbled and broken! And that just doesn't even seem to be enough to say Thank You.

Then on Friday night, I went by myself to my church to listened to a sermon given by four different pastors. They took turns speaking. One, however, stuck out for me. He said that there are two paths. One is the path of eternal darkness and the other path is eternal life. Then he said, the one you choose to be on is all up to you. It's about what you believe? Do you believe that Jesus lived, died and rose again? Do you believe that He is the Messiah? Or do you believe He was just a prophet? 

Today I will be going to a different church but the message will be the same. It always is the same on Easter Sunday, Resurrection Day.

Life and Death.

None of us think that tomorrow we won't wake up. But that is exactly what happened to the Pastor's friend. She went to bed and just didn't wake up the next day. She was in her twenties. None of us think like that. But what if that happens? Do you know where you are going? For certain? In the depths of your heart?

It's in the Bible. And some of you will say "oh that's just a book". No. It's not just a book. It's a history book. It's a book filled with TRUTH. Read the book of Daniel, specifically chapter 9. I found this blog talking about the mathematical probability that Jesus was the Messiah. Truly fascinating.  Truly amazing.

And I have not been able to get this out of my head. Did anyone think that it was going to be anything but just another day? We will always remember. It's the single greatest tragedy in my lifetime. 

And me? Well, you don't have to worry about me. I know where I'm going. If I go to bed tonight and don't wake tomorrow, I will be in Heaven. For certain!

Anyway...God loves everyone. Not just us who call ourselves Believers or Christ-followers. God loves the Muslims. God loves the Buddhists. God loves the atheists. He is desperately pursuing them. And you, by the way.

John 3:16 tells us:

For God so loved the world (that's EVERYONE)

that he gave his one and only Son (Jesus)

that whoever believes in him (trusts in Him, makes Him the Lord of their life)

shall not perish (eternal darkness)

but have eternal life (the promise of Heaven).

Yes, God loves everyone. But not everyone is a child of God. And people don't want to hear that nor do they want to think about it. They want to hear that God loves everyone. 

But God gives us all the choice to come to Him. He is not pushy. He is not standing over people saying "except me!" He is waiting patiently for the choice. If you choose not to, then that's your choice. "We can choose our choices but we cannot choose our consequences." (More Truth here).

We all have sin. We are born with it. But isn't this some good news! 

And John 14:6 tells you clearly that there is only One Way. His name is Jesus.

Well I didn't intend on going down this path. But sometimes the Spirit just leads me this way. Life is too short to wonder if you know Jesus as your Savior. This kind of talk makes people uncomfortable. 

After all this, if you still have questions, please let me know. This is something that maybe you have heard a million times but it still isn't settling in. Please ask your questions. I love to talk about my Jesus!

I am going to leave you with a few of my favorite songs that illustrate why this is my favorite "Holiday". Today:

Christ is Risen, and My Redeemer Lives. Who you ask? Jesus Messiah, my Hero, because it's a Glorious DayIn Christ Alone.

This sums up my life. Now, may I call you Sister (or Brother) in Christ? It would be my privilege. What better day then Resurrection Sunday?!

Saturday, April 7, 2012

Favorites by Daniel Curtis

Twenty-five things about my boy!

Favorite Food: Pizza
Favorite Toy: Legos
Favorite Cartoon: Phineas and Ferb
Favorite Song: Monster
Favorite thing to do: Hang out with my Dad
Favorite time of day: night time (sleeping)
Favorite Subject: Math
Current Favorite Movie: The Adventures of Tin Tin 
Favorite Color: Red
Coolest person in your world: Dad
Absolutely the best thing about being nine: you get to run fast
Favorite Animal: cheetah
Favorite Flower: Rose
Favorite Snack: popcorn
Favorite Ice-cream: Orange Sherbert
Three words that best describe me: awesome, awesome, awesome
One food I really dislike:  cauliflower (don't want to try that!)
Favorite Book: Diary of a Wimpy Kid
Favorite Musical Group: School Chorus 
Favorite Musical: NONE
Favorite Bible Story: Adam and Eve
Favorite Bible Verse: John 3:16
Favorite Holiday: Christmas
Favorite Vacation: Cruise to Alaska
Favorite outfit: Blue baseball t-shirt

Frogs and Snails and Big Fish Tales, 
that's what little boys are made of.

Friday, April 6, 2012

My Journal

Do you journal? You should. It's not too late to start. It is amazing to go back and read what I had written in September. Where has God taken me? What has God brought me through? How faithful is He? How disobedient am I?

I thought I would share a little (or a lot) of what has been going on in just the last six months.

In September, I started a study with Priscilla Shirer called JONAH. It was more than a kiddie story about a big fish. It was the Truth about a BIG GOD who used a little man and fish to bring a nation to repentance and salvation.

Soo what does that have to do with ME? I was Jonah!

Journal Sept. 23, 2011

I haven’t been journaling. I just don’t FEEL like it. Today I think: I realized that my job is now “Life Interrupted” every day. I use to be able to count on my position and the fact that I was Carolyn’s co-teacher. Now I go to work and don’t know where I will be. I guess I am not as flexible as I thought I was. I need to walk through the doors with no expectations…a clear mind!

I need to tell my heart to stop longing for something that is truly in the past.

It’s hard. I had the best job EVER!

Journal October 8, 2011

It was just me and Daniel tonight. Curtis is working at the farm and Amanda is at a birthday party. As Daniel played Legos, I decided to read to him. I picked a Joyce Meyer magazine. The article was called “Don’t Ever Quit”. The verse that she referenced had a word or two that I could relate to, “weary” and “season”

And let us not be weary in well doing; for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not.” Galatians 6:9

Reap! That’s a word I know well. Theresa means “reaper”. Thank you God for the continued reminder that you know my heart and continue to work in it. When your hope is waning, God’s word remains true.

Amanda is staying at the party a little longer so I am taking the opportunity to drink hot cider and catch up on magazines. This one is from last December. It’s from CBN, Pat Robertson. (700 Club).

The article is a Christmas traditions written by Terry Meeuwsen. She writes:

“I am learning to trust God to speak to my children’s hearts. My job is to provide the opportunity – in season and out- for my family to celebrate Jesus. It is the Holy Spirit’s job to make it take hold in our hearts.”

OH MY GOSH! NO WAY! Her article ends with Galatians 6:9

Praise the Lord!

“Let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart.”

On October 18, I wrote this.

Journal November 8, 2011

Lord, I need you. I am not liking this. I feel horrible for complaining. I should be happy that I have a job. Yet I don’t. I thought that I would adjust. But it’s been two months and I am still feeling like this.

Journal December 30, 2011
“Casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you.” 1 Peter 5:7

Also on December 30th, I wrote this.

Journal Wednesday January 4, 2012

I have a fresh outlook on this year. I want to truly be the light in the lives of the Wee Care women. Less words. More love. Wherever you need me Lord, that is where I will go. I know my purpose is to live like Christ. You have created me to bring You glory. Some people spend their whole lives trying to figure out why they are here.

Journal Wednesday January 11, 2012

God has taken me on quite a journey since September. I was not having the heart I should have. I had a true “Jonah Heart”.  And at the right moment God shed light on that to help me REMEMBER His promises.

I have been “mourning” the “loss’ of my co-teacher, Carolyn. I don’t know how many people I have shared this with…quite a few I know.

I am or have not been trusting God. He has said, “this is where I want you to go” and I have turned and run away inside my heart. “I’ve gone to Tarshish.” After reflecting over my two week Christmas break (from Dec. 20 to January 3rd), god helped me remember my verses. (Matthew 11:28-30 and 1 Peter 5:7) He helped me remember my purpose. I am thankful and blessed that the Potter softened my heart and I didn’t sit out in the sun and sulk like Jonah.

“Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and your plans will succeed.” Proverbs 16:3

(I don't know why this is highlighted and can't for the life of me figure out how to remove it!)

Journal Wednesday January 11, 2012

“Delight in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart.” Psalm 37:4

I told my co-workers that this was the verse of the day. It is truly what got me through the day. I had said to the other teacher, "it was a really good day". She disagreed with a laugh. As I laid in bed this morning, reflecting on yesterday's events, I realized that it wasn't really a good day. There were many things that would have sent people over the deep end. There were a couple of explosions between the boys. (We had ten boys and two girls yesterday). But my heart was calm. I know it was because I clung to this truth.

Journal January 12, 2012

“The steps of the godly are directed by the LORD. He delights in every detail of their lives. Though they stumble, they will not fall, for the LORD holds them by the hand.” Psalm 37:23-24

Journal  January 19, 2012

The Lord will work out his plan for my life ~ for your faithful love, O Lord, endures forever. Don’t abandon me, for you made me. Psalm 138:8

Journal  January 20, 2012

“And you yourself must be an example to them by doing good works of every kind. Let everything you do reflect the integrity and seriousness of your teaching.
Titus 2:7

(Trials and Temptations) Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. James 1:2-3 

Journal  Sunday January 22nd

Being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus. Philippians 1:6

(Ask, seek, knock) Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened. Matthew 7:7-8

Living Hope – In the storm…
For we walk by faith, not by sight. 2 Corinthians 5:7

Journal  January 31, 2012

But blessed is the one who trusts in the Lord, whose confidence is in him”
Jeremiah 17:7-8

Journal  February 15, 2012

Trust in the Lord and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture. Take delight in the Lord and he will give you the desire’s of your heart. Commit your way to the LORd; trust in him and he will do this Psalm 37:3-5

Psalm 37:7 – Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him;

Psalm 37:23-24 – The LORD makes firm the steps of the one who delights in him; though he may stumble, he will not fall, for the LORD upholds him with his hand.

Journal Monday February 20, 2012

My heart is at home even though I can’t be there. Today is an all day conference…The last class was about career paths. I sat there thinking “I have no desire to have a career in day care. I just wanted to be home. I NEED to be home.”

Journal  Tuesday February 21, 2012

“I wait quietly before God for my victory comes from Him.” Thank you Lord!  “There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.”  1 John 4:18 

Exactly what I needed to hear in my struggles with my son.

Journal  February 28, 2012

Lord I can’t change my co-worker but I can ask you to change me. I can pray for her. Lord, help her with the critical spirit. Reveal to me what I can do. Help me to help her. Not for any hidden agenda. Only out of love. I don’t need praise from anyone but You, Lord.

Journal - March 13, 2012

Anything God’s Spirit reveals to you will always match up with what is in the Bible, because all Scripture was given by the Holy Spirit.

2 Timothy 3:16 “All scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness.”

Journal - March 14th, 2012

This one is too personal to put out here.But this is what I can tell you:

By the time I got to work I was almost wrecked. Obedience doesn’t always feel good. B. was on break. Just the person I needed to talk to. I talked. She listened. I cried. She hugged me. I did the same with R. Both of them said that God will bless me.

Journal March 17th, 2012

Today something happened that stirred my heart again. “Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart.” WOW! Lord, is that the desire of my heart? It’s several months since I’ve even entertained that thought. Lord if this is the path that you want me to take then show me. I trust you with all of my heart. Revelation 3 talks about open doors! We are watching Facing the Giants right now. I am preparing my fields Lord for you to send the rain. “Your attitude will follow your beliefs”. 

Journal Sunday March 18th, 2012 (NVBC)

God is sovereign

Journal Wednesday March 21, 2012

Lord, my confidence does not lie in my situation. My confidence is in you. I am fearful because I don’t know all of the details. I am fearful because I am afraid of disappointing people. But that fear does not come from you. I know who I am.

I am:
  • The light of the world
  • The salt of the earth
  • A child of God
  • A bride of Christ
  • A joint-heir with Christ

I have the power of the Holy Spirit. I have been delivered from the domain of darkness and transferred to the kingdom of Christ. I am chosen of God, holy and dearly loved.

These words were part of today’s Girlfriends in God.

“I can be confident because of who I am in Christ. I can do everything through Christ who gives me strength.”

The title is Inferiority, Insecurity and Inadequacy. Then I go to Proverbs 31 and the opening line is:

I’ve always admired people who aren’t afraid to fail.

“The steps of Theresa re established by the Lord, and He delights in Theresa’s way. When Theresa falls, Theresa will not be hurled headlong, because the Lord is the One who holds Theresa’s hand.” Psalm 37:23-24

Failure produces wisdom when we ask for it and maturity when we learn from it.

I think God wants us to remember that following Him is not about avoiding failures and being perfect. It’s about accepting our weaknesses and becoming more dependent on His perfect love and power at work in us.

I prayed for a way. Someone ignited a spark. I didn’t seek this. God is simply answering a prayer that I had put aside.

Today’s verse:
But blessed is the one who trusts in the LORD, whose confidence is in him. They will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by the stream. It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruit. Jeremiah 17:7-8

Journal  Sunday, March 25, 2012

“Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.” Hebrews 11:1

Before the melt-down (on the March 22nd), I was trying to figure out all of the details in my head and was basically just filled with all kinds of fear. The Holy Spirit finally said “Enough”. This is what you prayed for. When I woke on Wednesday I felt at total peace.

On Friday, March 23rd, I resigned from my position as Assistant Teacher. I have been there since September of 2008:

I have prayed many prayers for you and my co-workers over the last four years. However, in the fall, I prayed that if it was possible for God to move me physically, then let His will be done. God didn’t answer that prayer. But He did change my heart, and continues to change it.  I have seen Him at work over the last few months and it amazes me that such a time as this, God has answered the prayer that I put aside.

Therefore, not having a spirit of fear but of peace, I regretfully give my resignation.

I truly believe that as soon as I resolved to stay at W.C. for the next ten years, God answered that prayer. I had resolved to stay until Daniel graduated high school. It really didn’t seem to be any kind of burden. It just was. And I looked forward to June 1 and having the summer off. I looked ahead at September and hoped to work even less hours. But God’s plan is different for me. As scary as not knowing what the future looks like, I am trusting that this is where He wants me. 

This is not an announcement to  my co-workers, for most of them already know. (I found out yesterday). This is the written proof that it's God who has been taking me on this journey. He was not going to answer that prayer back when I had a heart of Jonah. I was miserable sitting under that leafy plant (Jonah 4:6-8). Once my heart changed and my attitude changed, He said yes to that prayer.

My last day will be April 13th. It will be a terribly sad one. But I  have faith in God. He will direct my steps.

As you can see, this is not a decision that I made on a whim. I am not spontaneous. I take a lot of time to really discern that the voice is God's. There are so many voices inside my head. His voice never steers me down a path that doesn't glorify His name.

So, I urge you to take the time and pray. Get to know God. Listen for His voice. It is not an immediate answer always. We live in an immediate world of electronics. God doesn't have a cell phone. He does not text. You can't IM the Great I AM. Take your time. Be patient. I promise you that His way is always the right way.

Sunday, April 1, 2012

Discerning God's Voice

HE SPEAKS: These things I have spoken to you that in me you may have peace. John 16:33

I woke this morning with a heavy heart. I have a prayer request but I cannot give you any details other than, please pray for this person who I love dearly. Medical tests are required. When those things are needed, fear accompanies the situation. I have prayed and pushed "those" thoughts out of my head so that the Peace of the Lord could rule in my heart.

I opened my Bible study this morning. I am on Day 3. The title is PEACEFUL.

God knows what I need, when I need it and how I need it.

God's peace serves as a mechanism by which I can discern God's voice.

Peace is a gift that accompanied your salvation. It is one of the great blessings from our Father to His children. It is one of the names of the Holy Spirit that depicts His character.

I know this Peace personally. I spoke to Him this morning.

He is Jehovah Shalom - the God of Peace.

God's personal word to you will be accompanied by a sense of assurance and peace. When you sense God's leading ask yourself, Do I feel confident and peaceful about moving forward or am I restless and unsure about the directions I have received. Can you move forward in confidence that you will not be betraying yourself?

Our God-given peace cannot be lost; but if something is not pleasing to God, peace will not rule. 

"Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts" Colossians 3:15

The peace of God should rule in our hearts not our circumstances. We can't depend on what our circumstances say to determine what God is doing. We must always look inward first and move according to the Holy Spirit's witness in accordance with God's Word. When peace rules in our hearts, we can confidently move forward regardless of what external circumstances look or feel like and regardless of what other say. 

"God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power,  love and self discipline"
 2 Timothy 1:7

When you have fear, it is never coming from God. That is not in His character. The world is looking for peace through blessings instead of looking to the Blessor. You can only find true peace through Jesus. He is the Prince of Peace.

Prosperity is a state of mind. A contented heart can rejoice and feel prosperous in a tent, for Jesus promises peace internally and eternally.

Pray with me, please:

Father God, 
Good morning. You, the God of this whole universe, has breathed life in to me and have allowed me to wake again to learn  how to love You and love others more. Peace seems to be the topic today. I have heard "I'm at peace" but decisions made in our own strength can never give us what only Your Son can. Lord, I confess that I look to other things, worldly things, to find peace in my life. I get busy and put things before the people who I love so much. Forgive me, Lord. Thank you Lord for the people in my life. You have surrounded me with a support system, a church family, a work family that helps to hold me together. I ask this morning Lord, that you will give true Peace to the ones who are unsettled. You are the one true God. You have sent Your Son to die for our sins (not just those of us who believe but the entire world). You have given us Your Holy Spirit to walk us through this dark world. I pray Lord, that the ones I love can truly know this. I pray that they may not lean on their own understanding, but acknowledge You to make their path straight. I pray that they can feel Your loving arms around them and know that You have never taken Your eyes off of them. May they feel You holding them in the palm of Your hand. I pray all of these things in Your precious Son's Name because it is a strong tower, because it has power! AMEN.