Friday, April 30, 2010

W.O.W on a Friday

This never gets old.


(written after she found out she was dying from cancer).

I would have gone to bed when I was sick instead of pretending the earth would go into a holding pattern if I weren't there for the day.

I would have burned the pink candle sculpted like a rose before it melted in storage.

I would have talked less and listened more.

I would have invited friends over to dinner even if the carpet was stained, or the sofa faded.

I would have eaten the popcorn in the 'good' living room and worried much less about the dirt when someone wanted to light a fire in the fireplace.

I would have taken the time to listen to my grandfather ramble about his youth.

I would have shared more of the responsibility carried by my husband.

I would never have insisted the car windows be rolled up on a summer day because my hair had just been teased and sprayed.

I would have sat on the lawn with my grass stains.

I would have cried and laughed less while watching television and more while watching life.

I would never have bought anything just because it was practical, wouldn't show soil, or was guaranteed to last a lifetime.

Instead of wishing away nine months of pregnancy, I'd have cherished every moment and realized that the wonderment growing inside me was the only chance in life to assist God in a miracle.

When my kids kissed me impetuously, I would never have said, 'Later. Now go get washed up for dinner.' There would have been more 'I love you's' More 'I'm sorry's.'

But mostly, given another shot at life, I would seize every minute.look at it and really see it . . live it and never give it back. STOP SWEATING THE SMALL STUFF!!!

Don't worry about who doesn't like you, who has more, or who's doing what
Instead, let's cherish the relationships we have with those who do love us.

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

In a funk

"You open your hand and satisfy the desire of every living thing." Psalm 145:16

How am I doing? How much am I relying on God depends on how much I am praying. According to my prayer journal, I haven't prayed since April 13. Now that's not true, of course. But I have not committed to taking the time to be quiet enough to write my prayers out.

My friend and sister-in-Christ/co-worker believes that I am "dry" (I think that was the term) If it wasn't her word, it definitely describes how I feel.

I said I was in a funk. I was struggling to have quiet time. I was struggling to just pray in general.

I want to thirst for Christ. He is the Living Water. Fill me up, Lord!

I haven't been able to discipline myself to read anything. I picked up The Love Dare yesterday and read Day 22.

Day 22 - Love is faithful
"I will betroth you to Me in faithfulness. Then you will know the Lord." Hosea 2:20

The Dare ***
Love is a choice, not a feeling. Commit to love your spouse. Say I love you. Period! I choose to love you even if you don't love me in return.

This kind of love is impossible without the love of Christ beating in your heart.

It's exactly what I needed to read at that moment. Of course. I had just talked to a co-worker who is struggling with the possibility of ending her marriage. I am so sad for her.

This morning I decided to read and journal. When I looked at the last time I journaled anything about The Love Dare, I realized that I am not on Day 23. I completely skipped over Day 21. Oh well. I'll just go back and read Day 21 today and then Day 23 tomorrow.

But as I started to read, I knew that God knew what I needed to read yesterday. Today I needed to read Day 21!

Day 21 - Love is satisfied in God
"The Lord will continually guide you, and satisfy your desire." Isaiah 58:11

God can give me inner peace.
God can enable me to be content no matter what life throws me.
God is the only thing in your life that can NEVER change...His faithfulness, His truth, His promises.

God is your everyday supply of everything you need.

"Delight yourself in the Lord; and He will give you the desires of your heart." Psalm 37:4

And He has proven that but yesterday was that flashing sign, the attention getter

So, at 9 am today, I am sitting in the orthodontist's office reading and I just wanted to cry out, "God, you are so amazing. You placed scripture on my heart this morning and now this chapter of The Love Dare is ending with it!"

Don't you love it?! I do. I love when God WOW's me!

I almost fell off the chair when I read the end of the chapter. It talked about Jesus at the well with the Samaritan woman (John 4)

"If you knew the gift of God and who it is that asks you for a drink, you would have asked him and he would have given you LIVING WATER." John 4:10 (caps by me because I am stunned to read those words).

The chapter continues with this statement: Jesus offers a drink of soul satisfaction that never quits giving and refreshing.


The Dare ***
Immerse yourself in the love and promises God has for you. This will add to your growth as you walk with Him.

Immerse = to cover completely in liquid


I'd have to say that I am doing much better than yesterday.

How you doin?

Apache Blessing

bring you new energy by day,

softly restore you by night.

wash away your worries,

blow new strength into your being.

gently through the world and know it's beauty all the days of your life.

Saturday, April 24, 2010

Alphabet for Life

Accept differences
Be kind
Count your blessings
Express thanks
Give freely
Harm no one
Imagine more
Jettison anger (reject something)
Keep confidences
Love truly
Master something
Nurture hope
Open your mind
Pack lightly
Quell rumors (put stop to something)
Seek wisdom
Touch hearts
Value truth
Win graciously
Xeriscape (a landscaping method?)
Yearn for peace
Zealously support a worthy cause

By Renee Stewart

Wednesday, April 21, 2010


God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way.

Read this next line very slowly and let it sink in....

If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Happy Birthday Jeannette

They laughed a little louder,
they cried a little softer,
they lived a little stronger,
because the stood together...

Today you are 40! We have been sisters for 40! years. My baby sister is 40! I can't believe it. You are my sister and my friend.

I hope you have the most awesome day. But if by chance you don't, remember that you are my hero and I love you so much!

A friend knows the song in your heart and can sing it back to you when you've forgotten the words.

Monday, April 19, 2010

My Song

"I won't die with my song inside me. I sing everyday my eclectic tune. Arms wide. Raw heart exposed. I laugh as I make up words knowing I will find my way. And persevere when my sweet song is reduced to a raspy whisper in moments of despair...But I sing still. I sing, sing, sing my song. My song will not be caged. My radiant eyes will give it away. My song has broad flowing wings that effortlessly soar. And fill the sky with wild colored sprinkles of me."

Saturday, April 17, 2010

Briefly Me

My passion is ...
Following Jesus. It's that simple.

I know too much about ...
Potty training comes to mind first of course since I spend much time with those little Plums. I think I know a lot about a lot of different things. I guess I would have to say I know too much about saying I'm sorry since that seems to be what I do the most in my life.

My parents always told me ...

To just do my best.

My childhood ambition ...

To be a mommy.

My favorite memory ...
Has to involve my sister and best friend of course. But there are so many. Probably all of the make-believe games we played in our back yard.

Why I write ...
This is my release. This is my voice when I can't say it out loud. I pray that God shuts my big mouth but I haven't prayed about my fingers shutting up yet.

My first job ...
Babysitting the little girls who lived across the street. Tara was two and Carlie was eighteen months. That was 1983!

My best moment ...
Wow, I have to pick one and I'm not sure I can do that. Which means I am incredible best to have more than one 'best moments!'. When I became a wife to my favorite man has to be my best moment. He has made all of my dreams come true. I became a mommy. Then after a few years, became a SAHM.

My inspiration ...
I have hope. I have the LORD. Do I need anything else to inspire me? I think not!

Friday, April 16, 2010

Paid the price

"Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus"
Philippians 2:5

It was such a happy afternoon celebrating Amanda's report card. After Friendly's we were off to baseball practice. On the way there, it started to rain. Oh well, Plan B. AWANA. I had to stop to get money for their dues. On the way, I passed WAWA. To break the large bill, I told them they could each get a candy bar. Amanda chose a bag of Jolly Ranchers. Daniel couldn't decide between Swedish Fish and Sour Patch candy. I told him he could get both because they were cheaper than the Jolly Ranchers. I heard him say "We can share". Then they both show up at the register with a bag of Jolly Ranchers. We walked back to the candy aisle but Amanda has decided she does not want to share. So I made them put the candy back and we left with nothing.

As they get in the car, I am reading them the riot act because of their selfishness. I believe I was mostly angry at Amanda. I pull away and reach for the money (two $10) and it's not in my pocket. I check all my pockets and the wallet. NOTHING! I pull back in the lot and get out. I go in the store (which is packed!) NOTHING. I go back to where I parked and there lays the bank receipt...and NOTHING!

I am fuming. I go back in the store and take out only $10 this time. I continue with the riot act, telling the kids that because of their selfishness we didn't get candy or the $20 that we were going to use to buy the candy.

After I drop them off I realize that God had to teach me a lesson for being so indignant.

angry at unfairness: angry or annoyed at the apparent unfairness or unreasonableness of something

Synonyms: irate, vexed, put out, in a huff, outraged, incensed, annoyed, piqued, cross, angry, furious

Sigh. Why are the tough lessons so tough?

Father God,
Thank You for today. Thank You for the trials and tribulations you place in front of me. They make me need You more, to rely on You for everything. Thank You for paying my price on the cross so that I didn't have.
Help me be an effective leader. Let me be the same person on the outside that I am on the inside. Let me be the same person on the inside that I am on the outside. Make me transparent. Break my heart for what breaks Yours. Soften me. Let me be on the path of Jesus. Let my light shine on that path. Lead me. Guide me. Humble me. Help me have love in my heart and kindness on my lips. Let me be patient. May my attitude be the same as Christ Jesus.
In Your Precious Son's name, Amen.

I've been doing a 40 Days with Jesus devotional with Pastor Paul. He sends an email each morning. I seem to be a little behind. But actually I am right on God's time. After writing this post, this is the email I received:

God allows situations to develop that give way to emotion, even confusion, so that we can gaze upon His wonder. Notice that the disciples don’t realize that it was their sin that actually required Jesus to die on a cross. Our leaders handed Him over and they crucified Him. Are we like that? Do you think it was for someone else’s sin that Jesus died? Yeah, you sin, but you don’t think it’s as bad as others; it’s not like other people do.

Scary how that works. You know what I mean right? It will be the devotion I read at Wee Care or the Bible Gateway verse of the day or the K-Love verse of the day. It ties right in to my life because that is what God had planned. Thank You God for being totally in control of my life!

Proud Momma

Report Card Time:
These are the last three marking periods.

English - C, D, C
Social Studies - C, D, A (Yahoo!)
General Math - D, F, C (Horray, Yippee, Yahoo!)
Science - D, D, C

Music - A
Family Consumer Science (now in English, Home Ec.) - B
Keyboarding (It was typing when I was 11) - A
Phys. Ed (or gym class) - A

Four A's
One B
Three C's

NO D's or F's
Yep, read that again...there are no dee's or eff's! HA HA HA HA.

I think I'll buy her a car. Or maybe an ice-cream from Friendly's.


Thursday, April 15, 2010

Four Day Agenda

I'm single parenting for a couple of days. Praise the Lord that it is only for a couple of days.

I'm tired already.

Thursday -
4:30 dentist appointment
6:30 Irish Dance practice

Friday -
6:00 Baseball practice
7:00 Boy Scout meeting
Baseball practice rained out. Skipping Boy Scout meeting.
AWANA 7:00 to 9:00 pm

Saturday -
9:00 Baseball game
1:00 First Holy Communion (my nephew)

Sunday -
9:00 Worship Service
12:30 Irish Dance Recital

Of course these are just the commitments. I didn't mention that I am working 7:30 to 2:45 both days AND homework tonight.

I'm tired already!

Why am I discouraged? Why is my heart so sad? I will put my hope in God! I will praise him again— my Savior and my God!
Psalm 42:11

Wednesday, April 14, 2010


"Many people work hard to accomplish goals only to find that real joy or satisfaction from them alone is limited. They ask, "Is this all there is?" Real happiness comes in living what is right and true in your heart. You become God's gift to everyone. Happiness is not out there, as the Kingdom of God is within you, waiting to live through you to others. That gives God glory, and brings you joy, peace, and fulfillment."

I'm not sure who said this. I saw it on someone's Facebook page.

Friday, April 9, 2010

The Book of Esther - in a nutshell

I believe in the sun, even when it is not shining.
I believe in love, even when I do not feel it.
I believe in God, even when He is silent.
(Author unknown)

Wednesday, April 7, 2010


Christians are walking epistles,written by God,and read by man.You are the only Bible some people will ever read. - Greg Laurie

Sunday, April 4, 2010

He is Risen

"Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God."- Hebrews 12:2

"But God showed his great love for us by sending Christ to die for us while we were still sinners." Romans 5:8 NLT

"And when I am lifted up from the earth, I will draw everyone to myself." John 12:32

Saturday, April 3, 2010

It's Tough Being a Woman

The store shelves are filled with books, magazines, and movies that reinforce a warped world view. They make you unhappy with monogamy and even unhappier with yourself in ways you cannot fix." Beth Moore

I am almost finished my bible study on the book of Esther. It's called Esther: it's tough being a woman. I LOVED it.

However, I have had to be disciplined to do it. I know that it would have been easy for me to say, "this just doesn't work in to my schedule".

This year the time of the class changed from 7 pm to 6 pm. Amanda's dance class changed from 5:30 to 6:30. I see this as a test from God. Much of it was seeking the material on my own. I missed many video sessions. But I did not give up.

There is one more video, this Thursday. As I review emails last night, I notice that Daniel has bowling with the cub scouts which means I have to take Amanda to dance. I will miss the final video. Oh well. God knew I would.

"I have to accept that I was not called to an easy life. I was called to a purposeful life. At strategic times of internal war I stop and ask myself, "What if this is a critical moment? What if this very thing, this very decision, is the most important piece of the puzzle comprising my purpose?" Beth Moore

Each week there has been a different message. The love of woman has been on my heart for a while now. I know that this study was purposely put in my life at this time. It was up to me to be a good disciple and stick with it.

Beth Moore is a wonderful teacher. Actually, wonderful doesn't really describe how much I love doing her studies. If you ever get an opportunity to take one, take it!

Here are some of the thoughts we discussed:

It's tough being a woman in an another woman's shadow.

It's tough being a woman in a world where beauty is a treatment.

It tough being a woman in a mean world.

It's tough begin a woman in the tight fist of fear.

It's tough being a woman who can balance passion with patience.

It's tough being a woman who feels responsible for the "how".

"You cannot amputate your history from the fulfillment of your destiny." - When I am in Jesus, my past is something He takes hold of and makes it into a destiny. That's called redemption! Beth Moore

Friday, April 2, 2010

It's Friday

"And when I am lifted up from the earth, I will draw everyone to myself." John 12:32

Good interpreted to mean Holy, in case you were wondering why the day my Jesus was crucified was called "Good" Friday.

It's Friday...but Sunday's coming!

It’s Friday. Jesus is arrested in the garden where He was praying. But Sunday’s coming.

It’s Friday. The disciples are hiding and Peter’s denying that he knows the Lord. But Sunday’s coming.

It’s Friday. Jesus is standing before the high priest of Israel, silent as a lamb before the slaughter. But Sunday’s coming.

It’s Friday. Jesus is beaten, mocked, and spit upon. But Sunday’s coming.

It’s Friday. Those Roman soldiers are flogging our Lord with a leather scourge that has bits of bones and glass and metal, tearing at his flesh. But Sunday’s coming.

It’s Friday. The Son of man stands firm as they press the crown of thorns down into his brow. But Sunday’s coming.

It’s Friday. See Him walking to Calvary, the blood dripping from His body. See the cross crashing down on His back as He stumbles beneath the load. It’s Friday; but Sunday’s a coming.

It’s Friday. See those Roman soldiers driving the nails into the feet and hands of my Lord. Hear my Jesus cry, “Father, forgive them.” It’s Friday; but Sunday’s coming.

It’s Friday. Jesus is hanging on the cross, bloody and dying. But Sunday’s coming.

It’s Friday. The sky grows dark, the earth begins to tremble, and He who knew no sin became sin for us. Holy God who will not abide with sin pours out His wrath on that perfect sacrificial lamb who cries out, “My God, My God. Why hast thou forsaken me?” What a horrible cry. But Sunday’s coming.

It’s Friday. And at the moment of Jesus’ death, the veil of the Temple that separates sinful man from Holy God was torn from the top to the bottom because Sunday’s coming.

It’s Friday. Jesus is hanging on the cross, heaven is weeping and hell is partying. But that’s because it’s Friday, and they don’t know it, but Sunday’s a coming…

"[Jesus Again Predicts His Death] Now as Jesus was going up to Jerusalem, he took the twelve disciples aside and said to them, "We are going up to Jerusalem, and the Son of Man will be betrayed to the chief priests and the teachers of the law. They will condemn him to death and will turn him over to the Gentiles to be mocked and flogged and crucified. On the third day he will be raised to life!"- Matthew 20: 17-19

Funky Food

Remember when Amanda left a bag of grapes in her backpack and they fermented? I had to leave it on the back porch for two days. It smelled like I dumped a bottle of wine on the backpack. The grape bag literally had liquid in it.


Remember when Daniel left a pb&j sandwich in his backpack until it decomposed? It took me a week to figure out why my car smelled. I knew it had to be food. But what I didn't realize was that the smell came and went with his backpack. I had to THROW IT OUT. There was no getting the smell out.


This morning I pulled my cell phone charger and cell phone out of my purse. I put it in there earlier in the week to charge it at work. You can see how often I use it. It's Friday morning and it's still dead. I reach in and pull out a mashed, crumbling hard boiled egg. The children dyed eggs on Wednesday. I did a purse dump and cleaned it out.


The apple doesn't fall far from the tree.