Sunday, January 31, 2010

Poor Neglected Blog

"Keep on asking, and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened to you." Matthew 7:7 NLT

Still seeking peace!

I've been...well what have I been? Busy? Always. Stressed? Always. Last week was simply awful. It was the usual struggle with homework and Amanda. I think it was Monday night, yes, Monday. I went to bed at 7:15 in tears after several hours of frustration and lost patience.

I went to a "Stress Management" class on Wednesday night. It was informing. Some of it was unrealistic. But I decided to buy some special tea and have a "de-stress" moment each night. Last night I was holding the tea cup and shouting at the children. So much for de-stressing.

Friday night was a great night. I went to a "Girl's Night Out" at our church. I took a painting class and a hip-hop class. I had so much fun. It was a great success. I think it might be something that will be organized each quarter. Jeannette will have to come! There was massage, Pampered Chef demo, jewelry, card games, crafts and the end of the night comedian. It was a great stress free night.

Today was not so stress free. When you have lost your peace at church, you are pretty much never going to find it. Daniel went missing after the first service. I saw him with a donut, then he just vanished. Several of the staff were searching for him. He was finally found, hiding upstair in a no-admittance zone of the church for anyone under 12. Then, Amanda lost her coat. Between looking for the boy and looking for the coat, I had had it! I asked my Love to take the children and leave the house for 3 hours...and they did.

I ended up having a cup of tea with my Bible, doing my workbook for the Esther study, reading about raising a righteous child and reading a book on ADHD. It was a wonderful 3 hours on the couch. I also set the timer and took a 20 minute nap. I think I need to do this more often.

And let's not forget that I've been busy doing CDA paperwork.

What's this week look like?
Monday - CDA class during naptime
Tuesday - Piano and Cub scouts
Wednesday - Nothing?!
Thursday - Irish Dance
Friday - Meeting with the team of teachers and CDA class during naptime

The meeting is the biggie of the week. I will need lots of prayers for me to keep my emotions in check. My Love cannot make the meeting because it is at 9 am. Right now, Amanda is failing three classes and has a 64% in the fourth class. Pray for wisdom as we continue to walk the same road for the last six years.

Now, I must finish my Sleeptime tea and head to be. I apologize for not coming back to the OHM post. I weighed myself on Tuesday and was 116.9 so I've decided not to weigh myself on Monday mornings any more. LOL. Good night!

Wednesday, January 27, 2010


If you look at what you do not have in life, you don't have anything, If you look at what you have in life, you have everything.

Author Unknown

Monday, January 25, 2010


"What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them rubbish, that I may gain Christ."
Philippians 3:8

The key word being, gain, of course. I weighed-in at 5:45 am at 118.1. I'll be back to give you the encouraging words that God has given me.

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Autobiography in 300 words or less

This is do tomorrow. It was really hard to put the basics in 300 words. But I think I achieved it successfully. I should have my CDA (Child Development Associate) by June.

I am a daughter, a friend, a wife, a mother, a teacher, a bringer of God’s Glory. I majored in Art Education because I didn’t know what else to do. I was only eighteen and having to know what to do with my life was overwhelming. After receiving my Bachelors of Science in Art Education, I quickly knew that being an art teacher was not my life dream. After working in two daycares, I ended up in the corporate world of customer service. I immediately knew that I wanted to be a Corporate Trainer, or a teacher. I realized that it didn’t matter what the subject was, God had given me the ability to teach. After seven years, I was blessed with the opportunity to fulfill the dream of being a stay-at-home-mom. Being a mom for the last eleven years has taught me a lot of information and life lessons about children.

I can’t say one person or thing has influenced my choice. When you know you are good at something, it makes you feel good. I know that I am a good teacher so it didn’t take long for God to lead me to early learning. My heart knew the minute I entered the classroom, I was home. Each day I am excited to make a difference in the lives of these little children. I teach. But each day, I am taught by the children. I have learned an immeasurable amount of patience, love and kindness in the last sixteen months. I have been able to take the information that I have learned in my classroom and applied it to my own life. I have become a better mother. I have become a better person. I am filled with joy and proud to call myself an early learning professional.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Think about it

"I'd rather be a could-be if I cannot be an are; because a could-be is a maybe who is reaching for a star. I'd rather be a has-been than a might-have-been, by far; for a might have-been has never been, but a has was once an are."

Milton Berle

Wednesday, January 20, 2010


" when trials come our way, we can, by God's grace, put on God's gentle and quiet spirit, refusing to create disturbances and bearing with tranquility the disturbances caused by others."

From Multiple Mom T's blog.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Prayer Time

Father God,
Thank you for today. It really was terrific. Thank you for Amanda, and Daniel and Curtis. I am so blessed. I surely don't know what I ever did to deserve these three wonderful people. But thank you God. I know that we have been faced with some tough things in our lives lately. And I haven't handled them correctly. Thank you for loving me anyway. I know that I am a pile of brokeness. But you love me anyway. Thank you. And I stumble and fall a lot. But you are always there to catch me. Thank you. Please keep changing me.
In Jesus Name, AMEN.

"The LORD does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart." 1 Samuel 16:7

Without God

Our week would be:


Seven days without God - Makes one Weak!

Monday, January 18, 2010

OHM...still a loser

"Sometimes just surviving certain tasks without falling apart is our best and in those times God is not ashamed of our performance. He's proud of us for fighting overwhelming human emotions to do His will. God isn't interested in our stellar performance but in our hearts. He loves our willingness and obedience despite ...our insecurities." Beth Moore from Esther

Three ounces. Yes, 116.6, that is. But the point is that I lost. I don't have a tremendous amount of weight to lose. People look at me and say, where? I just want my clothes to stop fitting tight. I'd like to have my pants button actually buttoned. Silly me! So I only have a couple of pounds to lose. And remember, it's more about breaking the bondage than anything. Food controls me.

Today I learned about patience. As I washed the dishes I said...3 ounces?!
And God whispered, yes.
I know, in your time, not mine.
Again I heard, yes.

It's just the theme of my life.

Father God,
Thank you for my children. We are struggling right now with many issues. But you chose me to be their mommy. You chose me! I may not understand what is going on right now or why. But I do know that you are refining me, drawing me closer to you. Please let us have truth on our lips and love and kindness in our hearts.
In Jesus Name, AMEN

I love you, Lord; you are my strength. Psalm 18:1 NLT

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Love Never Fails

Click here for today's musical inspiration. This song is the only thing getting me through my days lately.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010


For I the LORD your God will hold your right hand, saying unto you, Fear not; I will help you. Isaiah 41:13.

"It's like your daddy when you were small." Multiple Mom T

Monday, January 11, 2010

100 Posts, WOW or OHM Monday

It's hard to decide which subject to talk about. This is actually my 103rd post for this blog. I didn't even notice. So hear is a little bit of rambling for you:

Each day before naptime, I read a little blessing. Today was State Inspection and I think nerves were on edge. I was pretty calm. The inspector only spent about 10 minutes in our room. After I read the blessing and children are asleep, I write the verse on our wet-erase board with our daily activities. When I turned to today's verse, I realized that's not what I read. The one I read was for February 11 not January. But God knew what we needed to hear. So here is the Words of Wisdom for today:

"Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you." Deuteronomy 31:6

Isn't that just perfect?

OK...OHM Monday Challenge, was started by Michelle. OHM, for those of you who missed it, stands for One Hot Mama. Now, I am not calling myself this. Remember, I just jumped on the bandwagon.

Last Monday I weighed-in at 118. Today I weighed-in at 116.9. Horray. I lost a pound! Praise Jesus. I am so glad. Last Monday, lunch was unplanned and then the rest of the night was pretty much of a train wreck. Tuesday I stuck to eating only my five small meals. That's really three meals with two snacks, stopping all food three hours before bed (which is 6 pm so I can get in bed by 9 pm).

My hardest part of the challenge is not "picking". I didn't realize how much I started picking at school. I don't even like pretzels or cheese curls. But I was eating them. Beef-a-roni? Are you serious? But I was about to take a spoonful before I stopped myself. So Tuesday and Wednesday were really hard. But once I made it through those two days, Thursday was much better.

Friday was my staff dinner. I had the roast beef, half a piece of the chicken parm and some ziti (which was flavorless). I ate the veggies and had a salad. Then for dessert, I had much will-power. (Actually it was the Holy Spirit. Who am I kidding?) I filled my plate with fresh fruit and skipped the cookies and the yummy looking brownies. I did endulge in one of my favorite desserts (click here and skip the intro) But just one!

I had one cup of coffee on Saturday which really consists of about 4 oz of coffee and 4 oz of French Vanilla Creamer. The serving size is 1 tablespoon (35 calories). I drink 4oz. Do the math! Well, I drank HALF! My eating was not great on Saturday. But that's my day off. Right back to business on Sunday, though. I was very mindful of what I ate AND didn't eat the chocolate chip cookies that sat on my parent's kitchen table. Visiting them is a diet killer. They always have awesome ice-cream bars or M&M ice-cream. But I resisted and had a banana with way too much peanut butter. But that's what it took to satisfy me.

I feel much better now that I am sleeping from 9pm to 5am. I am still drinking my 3 glasses of 16 oz. Sometimes I get that push and I get the final 16 oz. in. But not usually.

Planning ahead is in my plan. I made chicken breast last night for our salads. Tonight I am making chicken legs AND chili. No matter how much I lose or how much I don't lose, may God get all the glory!

Now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think. Ephesians 3:20 NLT

Thursday, January 7, 2010

Wednesday, January 6, 2010


Yesterday is history. Tomorrow a mystery. Today is a gift, that's why it's called the present.

I saw this on someone's Facebook page. I don't know who the author is. Sorry.

Monday, January 4, 2010

The Weigh-In

So today is the first day of a new start. Actually, every day can be. You just have to want to start.

I weighed myself this morning at the time I will be showering each day. That would be FIVE AM. I haven't seen that number on the clock for two weeks. Yuck. But it was good to get in to a routine. After I weighed myself (118 lbs.), I thought about how much time I spend with God and how much time I spend doing other writing this blog and thinking about food.

So I sat and prayed and wrote all of my prayers in to my new prayer journal. Laura had a contest on her blog and I won! She sent me the journal and other things too. I love it. I'll take a picture of it and post it at another time.

I have prayed over the last 13 days but I didn't consistently pray for one person each day. I am going to start doing this. Every day. During my 15 minute break today, I sat in the stairwell and prayed. Praying needs to be something I do and not even think about it. It should be a running conversation for the Lord. It should be like breathing.

So back to the OHM Challenge. This is how today has gone so far:

Breakfast - 300 Calories
2/3 cup Honey Nut Cheerios
1 cup Skim milk
1/2 cup applesauce
16 oz water

Mid-Morning Snack - 70 calories
Strawberry yogurt

Lunch - Undetermined

This is were I messed up because I didn't plan ahead. I knew that I had Boca Burgers in the classroom but they were a new flavor (Savory Mushroom Mozzarella, sounds good, right?) So I only packed 2 clementines and some carrots with ranch. I made the burger and it smelled weird. I threw the carrots on top and poured some ranch (a little) on top. I took two bites of the burger. It was DISGUSTING. Now when I say disgusting, well it was really, really bad. Because I can eat things that don't taste good but are good for me. But this was in-eatible. I'm pretty sure that is not a word, but it describes it perfectly. I ate the carrots and the 2 clementines. Then had a cup of mandarine oranges that I had at work. Then a few goldfish and a bunch of animal crackers. It took all that to kill the taste. I washed it down with 16 more ounces of water.

Dinner? I defrosted ground beef but I'm not feeling it. I think that egg salad sandwiches are more appealing right now.

Am I discouraged. Heck no.

So we say with confidence, "The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid. What can man do to me?" Hebrews 13:6

It could have been so much worse. And it's only 3:20. I have time to recover. Right? Say, right?

Saturday, January 2, 2010

Helpful Hints, Not Rules

I was 128 pounds in July of 2008. I was down to 112 pounds which took about four or five months. That's healthy losing. (It's about one pound a week). I didn't do a fad diet or buy expensive foods. I did nothing special.I prayed a lot. I journaled. I was patient and stuck with it. I trusted that I was learning what God had planned for me. YOU CAN DO THIS. Here's the truth...You didn't put the weight on overnight and it won't come off overnight either. What do you have to lose but the weight? So give it a try.

Helpful Hint #1
Keep A Food Journal
If you bite it, write it.

I was going to write Rule but I have decided that I need less rules in my life and more Helpful Hints. Agree?

There are many on-line. I've used FitDay in the past. Sometimes it's easier to use a little pad that you can keep in your purse, gym bag or Wee Care smock.

Friday January 1st - Happy New Year

Capt. Crunch French Toast (ouch)
2 Slices Bacon
3 Cheese slices (110 cal)
4 Crackers (70 cal)
2 Hershey Kisses
6 oz Cinnamon Egg Nog (180 cal)
1 piece of Kielbasa
1 Hard Boiled Egg (70 cal)
A few mini cookies while bagging snacks for next week
Nachos (but only one bowl which is really good for me)

Try it. I wasn't counting calories. But I am becoming AWARE. I checked the serving sizes and calories (when available). The exception to that was the nachos. I had intended on counting the chips, and measuring the shredded cheese, salsa and sour cream. But we were ordering a movie from ON-DEMAND (4.99!) and the carpet picnic was already set up. So I was pressed for time.

Which leads to another...

Helpful Hint #2
Plan Ahead

Count out snacks in baggies. Boil Eggs and have a bowl in the refrigerate for easy access. Make a meal plan for the day. Just have a plan because if you fail to plan then surely you will plan to fail.

Helpful Hint #3
Measure Everything (if possible)

I keep a measuring cup in the cereal container. I measure my milk. I have little bowls that I use for anything that needs to be measured (like my applesauce).

Helpful Hint #4
Read Serving Sizes

Do this especially if you drink, well, anything basically. For example, one bottle of Nestle NESQUIK is TWO servings. Each serving has 180 calories. So do the math if you are drinking the entire thing. That's 360 calories or in other words, LUNCH. Do you eat those pre-packaged (320 calories in HALF the) muffins. Those will kill your entire day. And they are more than one serving. (Yes, I know you can eat the whole thing. That doesn't mean you are suppose to however.)


Are you still with me or have I lost you? Hang in there. It's not as hard as it seems.

Helpful Hint #5
Eat the Rainbow

Are all of your foods, uh, kind of (grey) colorless? Do you eat a lot of cheese, potatoes, white bread, pasta. Are you feeling me? I know. You are thinking that if I tell you not to eat these, then there is nothing left. Be encouraged. There is.

You can eat low-fat cheese (which I don't) or just really cut the serving size. Now that's a hint in itself. JUST CUT THE SERVING SIZE IN HALF. You can eat sweet potatoes. Oh stop. They are good. Ok, then don't put all that butter and sour cream on your baked pototato. Will that work? Measure how much you do use. BE AWARE. Switch to a high fiber bread OR CUT THE SERVING SIZE IN HALF. Just have one slice of white bread. Try whole-wheat pasta. Yes, there is a different texture but if you slowly add some to the regular pasta until you have 'weaned' yourself off, you will not even know the diff. Trust me. Would I lead you down a road if it wasn't Truth?

Fruits and Vegetables. You have to eat them. You don't have to eat a variety if you don't like them. They don't even have to be fresh. I use a lot of frozen veggies and a lot of pre-packaged fruit in lite syrup. In my book, canned fruit is better than a donut (Did someone say donut? Oh, how I will miss you!)or a muffin.

Try to find some foods that you like that are red, orange or yellow. Berries are very good for you. Or go to the Food Pyramid. Just try, please.

Helpful Hint # (what are we up to?)
Drink Water

The never-ending debate about water, continues. Questions, Questions! How much? Does that include all liquids or just water? Can I drink too much? Can I drink flavored water?

I don't have all the answers. I've heard different things. I've heard drink half your weight. I've heard a definite YES you can drink too much. But I don't know. I am going with the old-school answer of 64 ounces. For me, that's four glasses because I have a 16 oz. glass. I keep it on my counter and every time I walk passed it, I take a drink. It's a visual reminder for me. But that's me. I don't drink anything else on a daily basis. Water is my drink of choice. Again, just try. Please.

Helpful Hint #7
Stop Eating 2-3 Hours Before Bed

Why? I don't know. Really. I don't know. I tried finding it on the internet but couldn't. I know there is probably an answer that has to do with your metabolism. But still, I don't have it. Sorry. Give it a try. It might help you sleep better. Oh, you don't have a problem sleeping. Then I got nothing. (It works for me).

Helpful Hint #8
Brush Your Teeth After Eating

Sounds silly? Sounds simple? Yes. It is. But it kills the urge to put another thing in my mouth because I now have that super fresh minty feeling.

Helpful Hint #9
Count Your Calories

Use this calculator to figure out how many calories you need. It factors in your age, current weight, height and exercise level.

Listen, people, I do not go to the gym. I do not have a membership or even know when I would be able to find time to use it. I do Wake-up, Warm-up with the Plums. And I clean my house (sometimes). I STILL LOST THE WEIGHT. Because I CHANGED.

The calculator will tell you how many calories you need to eat to maintain your weight. It will then tell you how many if you want to lose (Fat Loss). Then it has the "extreme fat loss" number. Please don't read that. It is not safe. It is not healthy. Just go with the "fat loss" number.

To maintain my 117 pounds, I should eat about 1500. If I want to lose, I should drop to about 1200. Do I agree with this? I don't know. You need to talk to your doctor. Have your New Year physical. (I had mine just before Christmas because I had strep).

I was eating about 1300 calories most likely. But I wasn't beating myself up if I got up to 1800 calories. I was mindful of what I was eating. If I ate poorly for one meal, then I would start again at the NEXT MEAL. I didn't wait for the next day or the next Monday to start over.

Alright, are you about done with all my helpful hints? OK, I'll stop with one more. Helpful Hint #10 should really be #1.

Helpful Hint #10 (The most important one).

Ask God what He wants you to learn in your journey to a healthier you. You will most likely fall many times during this process. He will be there to pick you up and encourage you to keep going. KEEP MOVING AHEAD. Don't look back at all the diets that you have been on. Don't look at all of the past attempts as failures. THIS IS YOUR TIME TO SUCCEED. I know YOU CAN DO THIS. I BELIEVE IN YOU.

And remember:

"What, then, shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us?" Romans 8:31

Friday, January 1, 2010

New Year, New You

Nine weeks!

Nine weeks to wellness? Well...

I had my annual gyn visit on New Year's Eve (yesterday). It's good to check that off the list. My blood pressure was perfect. My heart. Again, perfect. I am not on any medications, except the Amoxicillin I am finishing today for Strep. I have not had a visit since July of 2008, prior to going back to work. So I was down eight pounds. EIGHT pounds. That's exciting.

But, getting back to the nine weeks part...

It's a new year. Time for resolutions. Time for change. My mother's family history is all about Diabetes. Her youngest sister was diagnosed recently. She is only fifty years old. That's just a few years away, when I think about it. So, I am going back to all of the things I changed to lose that 8 pounds.

Do I need to lose weight? No. I weighed in at 116.9 yesterday morning. I am content with that number. I am content with the way my clothes fit. I am content with the way I look.

Could I be healthier? Heck yes. I need to get off of my sugar binge.

Yesterday, knowing my plan for the new year, was the day of excess! I had a french vanilla cappacino (or a cup of flavored sugar) with french toast that my mom made (yummy). Then around 12:30, I had a Boston Creme donut except the cream was white. So I guess that's not a Boston Cream. My local Dunkin Donuts calls it the Manager's Special. Lunch was a ton of shrimp and spinach dip with french bread. Then I washed it down with homemade snowflake cookies. (I think they are called Divinity). But that's what we call them. They are meringue cookies with chocolate chips. Dinner? No thank you. I'm full. So around 8:15 pm, I had the end of the pumpkin pie with vanilla ice-cream.


"Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body." 1 Corinthians 6:19-20

With all that being said, this morning I am having Captain Crunch French Toast but I am getting right on track by going through the cabinets and inventorying. Later. I will not have junk in the house because I am weak and will be tempted.

Nine weeks. You might be saying, so what happens in nine weeks? I will be having my forty-second birthday. (I want to be feeling as good as I look, ha ha. I thought you'd like that one!)

Back to the OHM Challenge. OHM stands for One Hot Momma which was started by Michelle. She is a riot if you haven't read her blog, please do.

I will post an update each Monday to let you know what I am doing, not doing, improving upon, etc. Why Monday? Because women can't start mid-week. "The diet starts on Monday!" Have you said those words? I usually say, "The diet starts tomorrow".

But isn't today yesterday's tomorrow?

It's a New Year. It can be a New You. But you have to want to change!

Happy New Year

I have a new Joyce Meyer calendar. It was sent to! January is exactly what I need to hear. Of course.

You may be weary trying to believe that a spouse or child or friend will change, but make the decision not to give up and keep praying, reaching out and giving so that God can use you in their lives.

"Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails..."
1 Corinthians 12:6-8

This is the prayer at the top. Perfect. Of course.

Help me continue to walk in love, and never give up - not on myself or on those around me. With Your help - I won't quit and I won't give up!

Happy New Year